Crossroads

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I had made different decisions along the way and I wonder if I would still like myself as much as I do now. For all of the wrong turns and misfortunes that have stemmed from my decisions, I feel that I have a certain amount of character and I never want to lose that. There are so many times in my life when I am faced with big decisions that will ultimately alter the course that I am currently on. I never realized in my youth how evident this would be for me. I always thought that random occurances would steer my life, and they do to some extent, but a large part of being an adult is making these big decisions. For instance:

What career do I chose?
What job do I chose?
What school do I chose?
What am I going to decide are priorities in my life and what order will I ultimately put these priorities in?
How do I want to interact with others?
Where do I want to live?
How will I treat my responsibilities?
What kind of person do I want to be?

I feel that many people may think that they can ignore these kinds of decisions or don't even look at things this clearly. I believe that these are people that do not get very far in life and are lucky if they get anything that they want, if they even truly know what they want in the first place.

Or am I wrong?

Maybe I am faced with so many big decisions because I am an over-acheiver/over-analyzer or maybe I think too much. Maybe these decisions are difficult for me because I am so afraid I will make the wrong one even though I refuse to let any kind of fear steer my decision-making process.

I believe life truly is a journey and that all of the experiences and acquaintances that occur are part of who we are and the character we posess.